It's sad -after everything that we've been thru our own love reduced us to a pair of fat, slobbery, pathetic sots. I remember the day when drinking was fun because it was shared with you. But now, drinking is an escape and cigarettes are fast company to sleep-deprive nights of mystic memories and saddened solitude. Mornings are no better because everything reminds me of you and you remind me of everything.

I passed by your house the other day and I got the chance to talk to your sister. She was watering the flowers in your mom’s garden. The same mosquito infested garden where we shared the first, most and even the last kiss and the threat of dengue is nothing more than an itch because it would mean sharing a hospitable room with you. Your sister told me that you left for Kansas two months ago, we both know about your leaving but somebody had to draw first blood and open the topic to investigate the stench of dead love. I grunted a "yes I know" and told her I forgave you the same day you left. She knows I am aware that she's fishing for pictures of my emotions. What she didn't know and what I didn't say is that I spent an afternoon forgiving you, but it would take me a lifetime to forget.

"This song is dedicated to the late Gian Carlo Peria: One stick sa gate pre!"





the fray - how to save a life

In the near future if you happen to see me wearing glasses, think of this post before the four eyes and cyclops jokes.

Most of you know by know I am taking summer classes or should I say, taking sucky-summer classes (Reading Improvement and Typing 11) and at night I spend my time playing starcraft (antique, I know...) and reading. I've read about five or six books this summer and I am about to start on my first Paulo Coelho. I think I've mentioned somewhere in this blog that I am avoiding all Paulo Coelho books because of their reputation as life changers. Unexpected changes no matter how exciting, scares the living crap out of me. Don't get me wrong, I can adapt, I just don't like the idea of adapting to conform to some people's view of the world. Anyways, back to more starcraft...

FYI:

My brain is throbbing right now... As in Lub-dub throbbing...


And my ex and I are texting again, I'm tempted to tell her that I still have feelings for her. But she just got out of a relationship and pride and tradition tells me I shouldn't go for it.

kung sinong ex yun, abangan sa susunod na kabanata. hehehehe...

Back in the days when Eat Bulaga was still cool and Wowowillie Revilame was still playing in some obscure band, I spent noons thinking you were the coolest thing to ever happen in my pathetic love life. Now, you're just another number in my friendster account. A statistic -if you'd call it that- in the 812 people I know or claim to know... Funny how life turns us around with one book or one simple-minded act. I bet you have no idea how crummy your standing is on my list right now, do you?

PS:

If you're reading this, then don't worry. this is not for you... This is intended for someone who doesn't know this blog exist. hehehe...

Either lie to me and tell me that you miss me or just kick my ass and lets get this shit over with...

Rainy days and mondays never get me down, I've learned enough about that to the point that effects are second concerns only compared to emotions. But memories can sure kick my ass, especially in the hours before sleeping. Unintentionally I slip and slide towards memories that never where and will never be before I go to bed.

So, I am sorry for the early morning messages of gloom. hehehe....

Missing someone is relative to the distance and time zone difference between the two said persons.

Beat that with another Lame E=MC2 equation Einstein...

I sat down with the thought of making a lame April's Fool post -as dictated by blog tradition but as I was booting up the PC, my mom called me into the sala and asked me to move the fan for her. As I was doing this, I noticed that my moms tummy was peeking from under her shirt, so I took the chance and snuggled up to her and started tickling her. (It's sort of a family ritual to tickle my mom whenever we have the chance. HEhehe...) In between fits of laughter and wiping of tears she took my hand and asked me if I wanted to see the stitches she got from her C-sec (Ceasarian Section), which unfortunately she got while giving birth to moi. I've seen it before and under circumstances of guilt that even now I have a hard time trying to fathom. Moving on, she showed it to me and started reminiscing about how hard it was giving birth to me and how long she had to struggle just so I'd be alive today and then we got to the part of how hard it is to rear an "angelic" kid like me which also included a small mental photo montage of all my high school and collegiate escapades.

That's when I thought, "jeez women give life to men and they subsequently drive us mad and rip our hearts out from inside us." and that includes my dear old mom... Am telling you, women are the ultimate everything ang the ultimate reason for nothing...

The world is tie-dyed and colorful.

the seven deadly sins meme:



1. wrath:



who did you last get angry with?

-Dunno the exact date but I think it was last month, it was the Veranda-chair-throwing incident." Don't ask.



who did you last get pissed off with?

-Kelly's boyfriend



who was the last person who got really angry at you?

-Kuya yata I think.


do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?

-Never keep grudges. Act on them...;)


2. sloth:



what is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time?

-Exercise? I should do it daily, but I never do it. hehehe...



what's the latest you've ever woken up?

-Yesterday, I think... round 12pm.


who have you been meaning to contact, but haven't?

-Kuya Ting2x and Dana Uka...



how many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?

-I didn't hit today, but on a normal 7:30am school day, I'd average at around 6 times.



3. gluttony:



meat eater?

-I'd anything with protein. hehehe...



what is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting, outing or event?

-Hmmphhh... I once drank 2 sets of RH all by myself? That's 330ml times 10. Hehehe... We also drank up a 1 litter bottle of Chivas Regal and 3 liters of RH.



have you ever used a professional diet company?

-NO



4. lust:



how many people have seen you completely naked?

-I don't keep count but i'd have to say about 20?

ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?

-does my brother count?



what's your fave part of the body?

-Hands and feet, definetely both.



have you ever made a proposition with a prostitute?

-Secret



5. greed:



if you had $1 million, what would you do with it?

-Give it to my parents and go on a drinking binge. hehehe...



would you rather be rich, or famous?

-"metaphysically wrinkle free."

6. pride:



what is the one thing that you've done that you're most proud of?

-Shifting courses this late in the game.



one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of?

-Tie my own shoe lace? hehehe....



what would you like to accomplish in your life?

- Write a book and have Anne Hathaway as my wife.



what did you do today that you're proud of?

-I have'nt smoke a stick.



7. envy:



if you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?

-I'd be Collin Farell, I wanna know how it feels like boning Britney Spears and Lindsey Lohan. (Excuse my choice of words.)



have you ever wished you had a different physical feature?

-yup!




I am tagging everybody who wants to answer this meme. hehehe...